Recipe:
1) Make your wife pancakes and bacon, toast and scrambled eggs
2) Clean up the whole kitchen
3) Cuddle with her on the couch
4) Take her upstairs and give her all you got.
Yield: 2 happy people
Archive for May 18th, 2008
18
May
08
Sex
IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER:
Below is 2 reposts from my blog at connecting singles, written less than a month before ( Nov-Dec 2007) my husband came and rescued me and took me back. Just going to show, it IS truly always darkest before the dawn!
It was Sweetiegirlz vs. the rain yesterday and the rain WON. As I walked my little 9 y/o “A”around raging puddles and mini rivers of water,my pants were soaked instantly.
“A” took a peek at the drainage channel which was raging with a torrential stream of muddy run off. Typical child like “A” ran from puddle to puddle. “WhOA!!” she laughs
The fake fur trim on her coat is soaked.
After, I walk her to school. I tramp home. water squishing through my sneakers. For the first time in a long time, I cry because I haven’t had a car for a couple of years.
I cry and cry and cry. My kidney infection is hurting at this point. I can’t go grocery shopping in the rain. I’m cranky. The rain swallows my tears.Then…..
My Brother called me yesterday. That in of itself is unusual . Jeff calls when something big is up. Usually I do the calling and call his wife, who I adore and we talk forever.
Jeff called. He had heard I was sick and having a bad day otherwise.
Surprisingly, once I told him my problems, Jeff pulled a 180 on me. He wasn’t on the phone to patty cake with me. He was on the phone to pull me out of the muck so to speak.
He got me talking about my future and continuing school. He got my mind off my problem at hand.
He knew I was upset about graduating vocational school with High Honors only to have to work in a store at night because of lack of a car.
He asked me what step was next after Medical assisting school.
I told him nursing school.
He told me “what do you need to do to make that happen?”
I told him.
Well, he says, you need to plan to make it happen, or it’s going to happen without you….
WOW….
When I got off the phone, essentially I was more focused on the answers now instead of the problem.
I love brothers.
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Undressed
The entity of “alone” laughs at the downward spiral of the heart.
It must, how else can anyone explain that I stand before Lord knows how many people completely and emotionally undressed today. It is the only way I know how to cope with crap.
Yes, this morning I woke up a tad overwhelmed. It seems as though this kidney infection is kicking my butt and comes at the same time as “you know what” the ladies will know. It sucks.It really hurts to move right now.
Yes, men all know how to cope.
They go to the garage,drink a beer and mindlessly watch football.
(I need to try this)
But beyond the fact that I am on a dating site, and realize now that I have only had one “date” from here. I will continue to blog and try (when I am feeling better) to inspire.
Next week, the girl’s dad comes to visit them for 10 days. While he is here, we will be going to the courthouse to finalize divorce papers. He chose to come here for 10 days to see his girls and for Christmas he “chose” to go to the Philipines and meet his mistress for 2 weeks.
It hurts as much as my kidney infection.
The girls are too young to understand. I will never tell them. They look up to him so much. They haven’t seen him for two years.
In another 5 months, I will be at another crossroads. Another decisiion.
I will be free of him.
My lease will be up.
I will be free to move.
ANYWHERE I desire.
It seems California is not working out for me.
Time to throw another dart.
For the men who read this blog and say “omg she’s got way too much baggage”
It’s NOt that I have baggage and no one else does.
It’s that I choose to put mine out on the curb, because I don’t want to keep it anymore.
Below is a post from last year before Doug and I reconciled in our marriage. It was days like these that kept me buoyed up, head above water, long after my emotional boat sank.
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The following picture won the editor’s choice on a photography website that is holding a contest. The picture is mine. I just thought I would share it. Photography to me is about sharing the beautiful images that the photographer may find and capture. It is among other things, an art form. I am blessed to be able to see this scene very close to my house. It is a place I see when I am walking to the grocery store to get groceries and as you can see, it is very peaceful here.
I feel that a lot of my blogs have been about negative things, so…. to balance out the negative I have decided to post something positive.
The store I work in, is sometimes a negative since so many things go into working there that are negative, but TRULY to have a job right now is a great big thumbs up!
My girls, “A” and “A” are high maintenance and not always “fun” to take care of. But a huge blessing to me. Without them, I would be very very sad and lonely.
We have no car and must push a baby’s umbrella stroller to the store past these trees, on the way there to put our groceries on. Invariably, a total stranger will say to me, “Oh you forgot your baby!” Or “you lost your baby” jokingly.
I just smile back. Passing these trees in the picture makes everything about not having a car and pushing a baby stroller full of groceries home, worth the trip!
BTW: gas is 3.25 $ a gallon here.
Things cool people say.....