Random Thoughts from the spin cycle

*Ripley’s believe it or not in San Antonio Tx has an interactive, tunnel walkway, with a spinning lighted  ”drum” around it.  There are also mirrors surrounding the walk that are reflecting/refracting the light making it near impossible to walk to the other side without stumbling. 

 

Oh here I go again. talking to myself. 

 You can either stay or leave, it’s  up to you.  Gonna be heavy conversation I guess.  I guess that’s why I’m grateful for the “blaaaahhhgg” I can just plunk my thoughts down and be on my way for the night.  

 

 

  Sometimes I talk to real people during the day, as I see fit, and my words may come across wrong to some folk.  Sorry for that.

 

 

  I just don’t see a point in letting the waters of life stagnate in my spirit when I can let my thoughts come in and then go out.  That is the way that I stay free of things that could normally weigh me down. 

Some people get me and some don’t.  It’s all good. 

 Today, was slow at work, but nice.  It’s Friday of course. 

 

 

 As per usual, I slept after work, for a couple hours.  I was relieved today to find out that I didn’t gain any extra weight on my vacation as I thought I might.  I am now starting my fitness regimen anew, and in earnest this time.

 

 

  Yesterday eve, I did some sprints on the track with Doug, and today we took a walk after twilight, after having a light sandwhich for supper.  The weather Rawks here!

  I am taking those green tea soft gel fat burning supplements.  I typically don’t believe in that crap but thought I would give it a try.

 

 

  Because of vacation, I am flat broke for about 5 more days.  sucks, but was sooooo worth it.  I spoke with Doug about Texas.  we are moving. it is nearly official now.

  it’s okay by me.  I asked him over and over tonight if he was SURE Texas was where we shall make our home and never move from the rest of our lives, not matter what. 

 

 

 He said YES.  So I am going on record here as him saying YES.

  Doug is often extremely fickle and the “new” tends to wear off his ideas very quickly in life, and then he will be back to complaining. 

 

 

  We shall see. 

 I talked to him about how I’m often torn between breaking up with him,and staying with him. 

 He wasn’t happy to keep hearing that from me, as it is a reoccuring theme in our life right now.

  I’m not sure that will ever go away. 

 It’s so funny how just indecision within it’s own right can make stress in one’s life.

 

 

 

  I consider that spinning drum in the picture above, with all it’s distractions and detours and flashing lights, and I realize.  That is a lot like my life. 

 I’m just so distracted, when all I have to do is make a freakin’ decision and walk on through. 

My Visitor from Planet Platonica

If not for this visitor from Planet “Platonica” 2006 would have been a very horrible year for me. 

   This is Rich, from California, ya’ll.  *”hiiiii Rich!*   Recently, he had a work business trip nearby.  So he came over and had dinner with SG and family! Yay. 

 

 

 The night before we met him out by the mall at Yardhouse to have dinner and Doug and I were there 2 or 3 hours munching on a decadent macadamia nut cheesecake with raspberry/carmel sauce, that is after we polished off a calamari appetizer!  

 Well, like I was saying.

  Rich!  He’s a platonic friend.  My first friend I met when we moved (and I separated from the girlz dad back in 2006) in California.

 

 

  I spent a lot of late nights crying to this person, YES I said it.  CRYING.  I had made a decision that I didn’t know If I could live with back then.  Rich not only remained there through all my troubles, he still remains today.

 

 

 

  I love him as a brother, and it took me 40 years of life to discover that yes, there IS such a thing as “platonic”, and this kind of friendship between a man and a woman IS worth gold in this day and age.

  Men bring a certain comfort to a woman’s life when they are not involved physically with that person.  You don’t have to agree with me, just nod your head.

 

 

 He IS Rich and I don’t mean with money.  He’s Rich in qualities you don’t find in the everyday world so much anymore! 

*a dear friend

 

 

*Rich was really excited to see the gurlz. lol